Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Simple Musings

Why does simplicity seem so difficult to obtain? Do the basic desires of human instinct and will really hold so much weight that they can make you want things that you have reasoned you clearly do not want? Does time erode away your senses of logic and understanding along with absence?

I'm trying to ask this on a much more theoretical/metaphysical level but the core question is are humans supposed to be complex creatures? Are we naturally supposed to function in an inherently intricate way? Is this just how we are? And is it a revolt against human nature to try and grasp for simple things?

Or am I merely missing the fact that this may be a case by case thing? Because some people get by with seemingly simple lives..but perhaps it requires a complex conditioning to reach that simplicity that all parties involved are unaware of?

To be normal after all is to lead a simple life with a simple career with a simple personality and simple friends. But then you have to factor in the intricacies of the relationships, the consciousness of each individual, and the usefulness of these career driven people as nuts and bolts in a machine. We humans seems to be a species that build complex structures around simple blocks. We're the bricks to a building.

So then perhaps one is stuck wallowing in introverted agony if they pass a certain level of awareness and intelligence. Perhaps they become too obsessed with the idea that they are pillars and start to try and accommodate their relationships by making them as simple as possible. But given our very nature as human beings to build complex things on simple blocks, we are doomed to make a myriad of mistakes and miscalculations. All for the sake of being "smart." So then are we tortured for our higher thoughts instead of rewarded? Is insanity our subconscious goal instead of our fear?

So then this lack of grasping simplicity leads us to go back and forth on things. All our reasoned excuses and opinions become susceptible to things that don't fit into the mold of all this complexity. So in a reach for simple things we are doomed BY simple things. These things lead to contradictions and inconsistency.

Ah, inconsistency; I don't think it's okay to have inconsistency with thoughts and feelings. One should stick on a singular opinion and go with it. Find your one true thought and then evaluate it, challenge it, and then get it cemented until a Good Point forces the process over again. One should not just randomly do the opposite without good reasoning. But then again...

What if inconsistency is the only true and universal human characteristic?

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

here's a bulletin

while riding a bullet train!

zooming ever faster just going and going

what to post what to say what to do

thinking racing going being there

or headed there

almost there

bang like that and it's kind of

not really

but it could have been

and that's all i really want you to think about it.


Sunday, March 22, 2009

Dear My Friend

Okay so yeah I have to tell you something and that is this: man my blog sucks and you knew this whole time didn't you? You really did. I guess I was trying to conform to some standard of writing and I don't think that has panned out for me very well. I tried to be introspective and give glimpses of my emotions and life and feelings and thoughts and it ended up sinking in like a puddle or something.

You see my thoughts are about as shallow as a puddle it's funny. Don't you get it?

Well anyways I'm starting on a new slate I'm going to delete all my previous posts. Yes every single one they are going bye and there's no point in feeling nostalgic. Now all my posts that I make are going to be addressed solely to YOU. I don't even have to answer the question of "who you are" or make any sort of attempt to convey what kind of person you are.

Because if you're reading this you already know who you are. You're the person who shares my same kind of interests, my same kind of search for understanding and knowledge, my same kind of brutal honesty. You're a person who will actually respond and talk about what I have to say and give counter-points and your own ideas. Me and you we're like a river man. Y'know? Our thoughts and ideas just flow together and we give them to another person and they keep the river going. It's a really long river and there are lots of snakes and fish and maybe even alligators too.

But we survive the nastiness and the poisonous animals and we dissuade each other from doing bad things. Maybe sometimes you and I we don't always agree and there are rocks in the river and the water crashes against them but hey that's okay because the water goes around those rocks and it keeps flowing because all we need to keep going is openness and imagination.

So I'm going to tell you this: you're not real. You're an abstraction and an idea. Maybe to yourself you're solid and tangential but to me you're not. And I'm not real to you either. We just channel each other. But that's fine because that's life.

So if you feel like it keep coming here and I'll have new things to tell you because I don't stop thinking I keep going and if you don't like what I have to say then you're not who you think you are: you're not you. Because only you would feel like reading this. So read.

Your friend,